They didn’t fit, and I loved them for it -- Mr. London Street
I don't fit.
Sometimes the flow of friends in my life is like a tide. There's an ebb and flow. Sometimes, they're there, sometimes not.
About a month ago, I had the most amazing thing happen to me. The tide washed up two people I don't know how I ever lived without. I'm talking about Ash and Whit.
Now, me and my sister are best friends, and the reason we get along so well together, is that the relationship isn't work. It just is. We laugh, we sing, we drink diet soda.
There are no expectations, we just enjoy each others company.
With Whit and Ash, it was the same. Immediately, it felt like we'd known each other for years. Like a resumption of something meant or destined.
One of my friends said about me once, "With you there was no waiting period for you to be a good friend. You just always were." That's how I feel about the two of them.
We've spent weekends rocking out on Rockband, laughing at ridiculousness. And I even found myself telling Ash about Cole. I just felt that I could trust her with that part of my life.
I haven't told anyone else about Cole except my sister. There just isn't anyone else I trust with that. Sometimes people don't listen, and I keep him to myself, rather than share him with someone who is only waiting for their turn to talk.
So, yesterday when I got into work, Ash and Whit were both grinning at me, and of course, I answered back with a grin of my own.
Whit immediately asks me for a big favor. Of course, I immediately say yes. They'd do the same for me.
When she tells me what it is, I have to ask her to repeat it two or three times.
When it finally sinks in, I'm touched, and fucking ecstatic.
See, Ash and Whit are a couple. They've been together for over two years, and it's one of those relationships that lets you see what happiness is. I see me and Cole in them, with the little considerate things they do for each other, the way the love shines in their eyes even when they're both not feeling good. What they have is rock solid.
And yesterday, they asked me if I would officiate their wedding. Me.
Of all the people they could've asked, they both decided there wasn't anyone else that would fit the bill.
I said yes.
I said yes, and meant 'you guys are my best friends.'
I said yes and meant 'I wish Cole were here to be excited about this with me.'
I said yes and thought of how their life together is just starting, how they have all that happiness in front of them.
I said yes and thought that they probably knew all of the above about me already.
I don't fit, and they love me for it.